Nature's Design

I've been to Cleveland and back. Again. I hope this is one of the last times.

October left all in one day; without warning, no moment for pause. A wind came and took every leaf off of the trees, and into corners of yards, gates, and houses.

I've seen a sobering perspective grow since I had to leave for Cleveland. I was racked with anxiety over my dad - his failures, his life-style, his health. It's been neurotic.

Maybe it is because the last week has been straight-grey from rise to rest, but my nerves have been twisting through the rafters. Maybe it is because I am crawling in circles away from cigarettes. Maybe it is because I do not exercise enough self-control.

But as was a case in the past, maybe it's because I am alien.

I was on a trip recently and saw something new - or rather noticed something lacking - boundaries. I saw perceived boundaries dissolve, saw nature's driving force not as components of the system, but the system itself. We are no more driven in live than a rock is driven to exist. It's inherent in nature's design.