Nothing new to report. I take 200mg of 5-htp a day, occasionally ingest some herbs, etc. I saw Nate the past two days in a row, as well as Joey last night. Today I felt rather edgy, felt filled with stale thoughts. Stayed to myself mostly, felt like old times. Mouth tight, words sparse, thoughts futile. Smoked three cigarettes today. I bought a pack of Parliament Menthol 100s, for the first time since I started buying cigarettes. Hm. I leave in less than a week for LA, and I feel apprehensive, because I don't feel ready to go. I don't feel ready for anything. Took an Ativan today as I felt about to brim over. What a lousy day.
reality is a wide web
cast over the world
from our eyes the threads fling
sticking to all
that we think
we see
some of us are stuck
to strong threads
some of us tear
through the thin
ones
it's a trap for us all
each fuck shoots a few more
each death casts an
unbreakable pillar
our web orbits a
silent sun, too far away
to burn the webs
we've wove
here we all breath
suck, and eat
on our silently
webbed world,
prey perched in
cocoons, ready
for the feast
who
will digest me
when my final
pillar
is spun?
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